My thoughts on FOOD and Americans!

Well today I have a big ramble or maybe vent. It is about how we AMERICANS do not take account for our own actions. We always blame others. Today it is about food.

I saw on the news how Paula Deen makes unhealthy food and now she would like to change her cuisine to healthy eating because she is a diabetic. Really is this bad?!?! she has always made southern comfort food. One thing I have learned being in the South they use Bacon grease in almost everything. Now does that mean I do NO but sometimes I do.

I personally think it is great. We Americans need to stop blaming others for unhealthy eating. We need to look in the mirror and really ask ourselves is it someone else's fault.Did they make us put it our mouths to begin with.  

I feel if you can not control your way of eating then you need help. STOP blaming someone else for your issues. I feel Americans need to realize as well that splurging is OK as well once in awhile. Sometimes treating yourself makes life nice and fun.But it doesn't mean do it all the time.

But it is up to us to make healthy choices! We need to stop having someone as the scape goat. Paula Deen I say good for you! I pray everyone who doesn't want to take blame for themselves shame on YOU!!

I pray you have a blessed Year and may God bless this day!

 Thank you reading me Ramble,

      

A Day in Our Lives!

OK well a lot has happened since the very first post I have posted. I know at this point I am blogging to my self which is complete fine. Because see I am probably going to ramble and not make since with this blog and that's why I created it. It doesn't have to be politely correct or proper. Isn't that great not having to worry about being organized. Well I know it will bug the shit out of some! But hey that's OK!!

I have a big challenge with one of my 5 children. The child I am talking about is my 16 year old son.He has mental illness and unfortunately he doesn't see what he is doing is wrong.Now mind you I am going to talk about today what has gone on with past week. He has a long life record of things he has done or has taken place. So keep in mind this is just a faction of what goes on in Jon's life.

 He at this time is in a Mental Hospital do to he ran away and was gone a week. So that means he didn't get his prescribed medicine. Instead he was self medicating him self with Crack Cocaine, Marijuana,Xanex,bath salts, meth etc. Unfortunately he tested positive. As a mother this is just sickening and very hard to understand since I didn't raise him to be this way. We all have skeleton's in our closets. But unfortunately his are demons at this point.

We went to court for him on January fourth and the judge told him he had to go to school, do his ISS (in school suspension),Stay after school if there was any tutoring, take his medicine, and stay with his counseling. Not to much to ask or follow. Well my son violated his court order that night. He left the house and didn't as or let us know where he was going and he didn't come back home until 3:30am.Well I let him in and he went to bed. I got him up and he got ready for school. He then got on bus and started his day with ISS. Well he left campus at 12pm and never came home.

As a mother this is the most helpless feeling in the world.To know your child is somewhere not knowing weather they are a live or dead or who knows. It is the most distraught feeling anyone should have to deal with.Maybe it is more helpless!?

Well back to the story! We didn't hear from him until Friday night mind you he had not been seen since Thursday at 12pm. When he left school.We called him in to sheriff department as missing. Because after the age of 16 they are not run aways any more. weird right.Well Jon did call on Friday at 10pm at night telling me he was in Alexandria Louisiana which is 2 hours away from us. We live in Hemphill Texas now. He said he got a ride from some kid he was hanging with. Well that was last time we heard from him until Wednesday the next week.

Well when we got home from church Jon was standing in the drive way of where we are living. We were shocked. Come to find out he was brought home by the sheriff department. But they had an emergency call so they left him. Well they came back about 9pm to make sure we were home and he was still hear. Well Jon was trying to leave again because he insisted he was not living with us and so on.Don't need to go into the gory details of all he was saying. I will say it was not nice or what any parent wants to hear.So the Sheriff Deputy talked with him for almost an hour to get him to realize he had no choice but to stay home and follow rules.

Well Jon plays a good game because he calmed down and told deputy he would follow rules and be good. Well they left and Thomas and I got all the kids settled and in bed. Well we thought he was settled. Jon left house in middle of night. We didn't know until next morning when we went to get him up to get ready for school.

We called him in to the sheriff department because as parents we are liable for doing that just in case something happens.We got a call from some guys mom letting us know that Jon showed up back there that night. We went and pickled him up. Well it all began after that.

We got Jon home he proceeded to us he is not living here. He hates us because we don't let him party or leave or do what he wants when he wants. GEE are we only parents that are this MEAN.. Really I am confused.I grew up having to earn what I would get to do. I couldn't just demand.

So he started destroying his room area. Threatening to kill us and him self or wanting us to get a gun and shoot him. It was not fun. He was also was threatening to brake Thomas nose again or shoot him etc. proceeded to tell me I wasn't his mom and he wanted me dead as well. Well he proceeded to go out the door. Thomas went after him and low and behold he is a sneaky little turd he was gone.

Well Jon came home after 20 minutes have no idea were he went. He proceed yelling at a red truck as it past the house cursing and threatening to kill the person. Thomas went out there to get him to drop his big stick and come into the house. Instead of dropping it he threw a punch at Thomas. Well Thomas grabbed him by the back of his coat and led him into the house.

That's when all hell broke out.The then turned and started punching Thomas and kicking. Well Thomas had to take him down.mind you Jon had no marks on him even with all the altercations. But Thomas did!

The sheriff department showed up. We had no idea why. But come to find out the wonderful neighbor called in our defence. Do to Jon has told them he wants us all dead. So they were scared.Well the deputy asked if we were pressing charges. Thomas was hesitant and I said well something has to be done. The Sheriff deputy said if you do not I will. Thomas had a good mark on his left side of face right by his eye and his right elbow was swollen. So we decided to press charges. After all Jon said he wanted to go to Juvy then be at home with us.

Well after they took Jon. He pleaded with judge he didn't remember what happened.Judge signed orders for them to keep him detained.Well he was threatening to kill himself if they kept him and low and behold. They put him in to into the mental hospital to get him on his regular prescribed medicine. He tested positive for cocaine and Pot.

Well the juvenile probation department called to inform us they are getting him from hospital after he is realized. we wont have to worry about getting him.Since we had to be at hospital to have him admitted. Due to him being 16 years old.

So now that you have a little bit of my week it has been very rough. I still have three other kids at home besides Jon and one on way. So if you can imagine trying to protect your other kids from their own brother is hard. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.

Guess it is one way for Satan to try to make your life hell on earth. But I tell you this it is making me rely more on my Heavenly father. I tell you this is just a touch of the ice burge of crap he has put use through. But I am hopeful something is finally going to make him accountable and straighten him up! Because God is a hopeful loyal powerful being!

I hope I didn't bore you to bad or skip around to much either.Now mind you I did leave out a lot of things that took place do to you would be reading all day. If you did take time to read my RAMBLES please leave comment and ask if I didn't make since or just didn't touch a place that was finished for you. I don't mind and it helps me make since of what is going on in my or our lives.

Pray you have a blessed year and that God's peace is with you!

Thank you for Listening to me ramble,

It is a New Year!!

It's the New Year and things are looking up for The Johnson Tribe. 2011 was a bleak year for us and didn't turn out to be good even with the good.

Oh I am sure your saying well you had things that were positive well yes but unfortunately the bad kinda out weighed the good. But I know that 2012 is going to be the year that Thomas and I can actually be proud of.

We will be finishing up a part of our lives once our son comes to be apart of our family. That chapter of baby making will be over. Focusing on raising and hoping they make the best out of what we try to give them. So when they are adults and parents they make wonderful choices. Having children of all ages I mean literally all ages adult to infant makes life challenging.

The oldest boy is living in Florida and going to college he is 21 years old. I pray he can make use out of his resource's and become something as he grows. Having him live so far away sucks. But at least he calls and lets us know how he is doing. Has not always been this way. But we worship a healing and forgiving God.

The second oldest child is 16 years old and he is mentally ill. Yes he doesn't believe there is anything wrong with him. But he chooses to make bad decisions over and over again. It is almost like he can not help himself. He has been in and out of Mental Hospitals in 2011 nine times. He truly believes he is grown and we should let him do as he feels. He also doesn't want to take responsibility for nothing always someone Else's fault. Yes some of this is normal. But most kids who think normal know when to back down and do right!

We have three daughters. Their ages are 8 years old, 6 years old and 3 years old. We are homeschooling them. They are doing well. We are having some issues of them picking up on their 16 year old brothers behaviors not so fun. But over all they are soaring and we couldn't be prouder of the positive things they do.

Our  8 year old is in doing 3rd/4th grade work. She went from not reading but little things last January to reading 5th grade level in April 2011. I could not be prouder but I can not spell to Daddy any more she is a spoiler of know what we are saying. The little smarty pants.

Our 6 year old is doing 1st/2nd grade work. She is struggling a little bit, not because she can not do work she don't want to do the work. She is going through the I don't want to do school work or anything that is going to make think. But when she sits down and actually does her work she is so proud. Sheis just one who needs major prompting but she is getting there.

Our 3 year old is a challenging child she is stubborn, quick as a fiddle and loves to do the opposite of what is asked. So we are working on her listening skills as well as not saying no, NOW or just being mean to her sisters. She is a character and funny as well. She is our comic relief.

Our son is due to be here May 2012. We are excited even tho we had no idea God planned on us having one more. Having a son again is refreshing. I am proud to be able to give my husband a biological son. Not that the 2 he has helped raise aren't his blood. He loves those two very much as if they were his biological boys. But after our baby gets here we are finally done with the baby making chapter of our lives. I have never felt this being so true ever. I look forward to the new chapter that comes with not baring children any more. I never thought I would say that before now. Guess my age is catching up to me.

In closing I am so proud to think and say 2012 is something positive to look forward to. New beginnings and life. New job new outlook on life new baby new way of thinking. Thank you God for giving us a future to look forward to!
                                  Thanks for letting me Ramble,